So today will be day 1 of my water fast. I chose to do a water fast a few weeks ago and it was successful. I did really well. I didn't make it 21 days like I wanted to but I did make it 10 days. I was really proud of myself. This time I would like to make it longer. I got a few points from a forum:
1) write each day about how you will look and feel
2) don't forget to describe specifics even drawing pictures will be good
3) remember you are doing this because you want to and be grateful for it
4) no matter how bad it gets keep going it will be hard to suck it up
I liked how I felt while I was fasting before. It felt like I was really getting cleaned out and refreshed too. I felt like my food was finally digested. I over eat way too much and enjoy binge eating. I fail at a lot of things. I really need to lose this weight.
I know some people who do HCG still. My thought of that is I choose not to do that since it costs 50+ bucks while fasting costs about a few bananas each day...
HCG makes you depend on the synthetic hormone for weight loss. But in reality you can lose 1 lb or more each day by fasting. and at 500 calories per day (as in HCG protocol) you can eat up to 5 bananas (= 500 calories) and no fat. But electrolytes. which is the problem with that diet. fuck that diet
It's the same thing I see wrong with all diets. Fasting is beneficial and it is not starving your body. I overate for the past few weeks and gained back the weight from fasting previously. The goal now is to go from fasting to vegan. I want to lose as much as I can. I know I am about 212 right now. Last summer I weight 40 lbs less. I have no clothes now and the clothes i do have do not fit. I am so embarrassed I just want to sit inside my house and eat all day.
Today is different I am going to write whenever i want to about this and I have some coffee for the day. I am going to take a smooth move tea. Light laxative so that the rest of the remaining food in my gut will exit.
I haven't eaten since last night and I am not hungry at all. That says something. I need to keep my mind occupied with other things like the fashion designs i have for hemp dresses. Or growing my garden next year, guitar, I can work on recipes. I can work on lots of things. I know I might be starting a job at a burger joint.
This is so that I can make money to become a personal trainer. I want to be a trainer very bad so that I can make more money and actually do the things I say I want to do.
I am hoping that I can fit into my nice clothes in a few months. I will stick to this. I know the obsticles that are awaiting me right now. Cody will ask me what to eat and I'll cave into it. It happens often and every time. Not this time. I will say no I don't want to eat.
I have lots of clothes that are super cute and do not fit. I want to make my own clothing and eventually sell it.
I want people to respect me. Now that I have gained this weight back I feel even worse. So from here on out I will work on this alone. I will make it back to 170 and fit into my awesome clothes again. I have 2 months until we go on our 1 year anniversary trip. I want to be thinner this year than I was last year. I want to buy some nice out fit for the trip and surprise him.
I want to look sexy for the anniversary. I want to wear all my clothes again. Jeans, dresses, heels, etc....
I have an amazing meal planned for that night. there is roughly 60 days left. If i do 40 days that is 40 lbs or so. that leaves 20 days to get fit. that's ok. I just need to stick to this. I am going to go look at my clothes now so I can get more motivated.
I hope I have the best of luck in this and I can get through it. I know I could i need to just feel it.
